While struggling with what the hell was wrong with me, and not knowing what was going on. I found talking really helped. Most of us dont want our close ones to know the pain, the details and the thoughts going around in our heads. Keep in mind though that the ones closest to you really want to help you. But if like me you dont want to burden them untill you're ready. This discord server helped me get through the first few low patches:
This server is owned by a bunch of clinical psychologist whose sole purpose is to make help and support available for those who are having mental health problems and issues.